Surrender into Mystery

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After a healing session with a friend yesterday, I became aware of how much stress my body tries to carry, and how much that weighs me down.



My new mantra, Surrender into Mystery, is quite a homework assignment! As a recovering perfectionist, certainty is what makes me feel safe, and right now, there isn't a lot of that to go around.



The chaos of my husband's work situation, water damage at our daughter's condo that has her temporarily living with us, and the violence that continues to rock our country feels very stressful. There are no words to describe the anger I have at the injustices created by those in power.



I realize that I haven't consciously made a point to release the stress, to come back to center, to remember that I am loved, and safe in this moment. I am working on trusting and surrendering into mystery. (Please let me know how this works for you! I want to know your tricks!)



I can get into the dangerous cycle of monkey mind, and think that because I haven't written to you, or kept up with social media that I am somehow behind, and not enough. I have to remind myself that things are still moving forward even when Chaos seems to be at the forefront. ( I am still creating art! See above and below!)



No, I don't have answers, and I don't know what the future holds. And because I can't control that, I have to be okay knowing that in this minute, I am still breathing. I think about something I am grateful for. And I trust that the next minute will take care of itself.These are my baby steps toward accepting mystery.



Breathe.

Be grateful.

Notice what is, not what isn't.

Be grateful again.

Breathe.

TRUST.

Breathe.

Breathe.

Breathe.